My Dark Nights

As far as I know about myself, I am crazy, I am nocturnal but all the above I want peace, I want humanity, I want prosperity.i want no more pollution, no more population, no more crime, no more fear of Demons. I want to change, therefore I started changing myself then I started burning my midnight oil to the peak. I started learning new things, I fired up my stations, I made that choice which is every day struggling through my shoulders and choose to be as cool as a cucumber not because I have no fear but because I have no choice, the longer I will live, the stronger I will work. no job is worth for my life it earns for, now I have no more interest in learning things now I am more in creating things because this is more worthy for me now, Days changed into years as I went deeper and deeper, far away in my mansion hope.these nights are not over yet.

I'm not done telling you that there are a lot of things but right now I need to tell u that u really need to know, I used to think that when I will be a grown-up child that time, I would be no longer bound to anyone.but now I am hell bound by the spells.

My culture, environment was trying to sensitize me but who knows I am a non-volatile solute

.a lot of secrets that are about to jump out of my tongue ...just give me a moment for a worth calculation..... I want to tell you about my sleepless nights

when my dreams kept scolding me every night that u are not born to give up, that time my everlasting companion Redbull gave me wings at my back.

I need to tell you about the weeks that I spent crying, yelling for u and still wanting to kill those who are bloodless, devil and whose demon are more big than their living and all the diary pages that I filed in an attempt to project the perfect story of my life are now faded by my hunger. I don't want to select all my words because I need you, I need u right now and I need to tell you how talking to you makes me more realize that how much we need to talk and how much more you need to know

That day, the date was 16-6-2014 and now the day is 16-6-2018.this is a day when I measure myself on a scale every year at the same day; at the same time, which has endless less of goal lines.its been 4 years from now, parameters have been changed. I know it very clearly, today is the day when I left my home, met with new people's, new life, new environment, I was very happy, I came from an urban area and I am here like all the people who comes for their living.now I am in the city of Dreamers, every year on the same day I examine myself that how much I am changed, how much work I have done.

last night I didn't work, I slept whole night, I had a dream which was scarier than a ghost Oh, everywhere I saw, Ghosts are all around, I'm hell bound, (I'm spellbound).these ghosts are of my fears, fear of losing my dreams that used to live in a city of Haryana... in my dreams I met with those things which are known to my heart only that these demons have no origin, no destination.these are moving randomly here and there doing Browning movement.i was assigning myself in dreams as I met with myself, I felt my dreams are broken, I felt that I am moving away as a spaceship moves... then my past spoke in hushed tones to me that you have changed yourself, that you have changed yourself a lot, your change affected people's a lot, now you don't take care of your feelings and someone's else feelings too.now some of the whispers said that you are laughing, passing a smile to everyone in order to make them smile and in depth u are crying from inside.now you scared of that day when u left your home that day u were not like this. You know you were somewhat different.then suddenly a bat came and this bat made me woke up ....omg I was in my dreams.these was the first words that I murmured... I wanted to spend more time in that but unfortunately, every time I think everything will go by my way...but that never happened, but now there are no dreams that I can dream of.

I wanted you to wait back a little longer coz I need to tell a little more.

..After wiping out my eyes, I plugged my headphone over my ear and I played some soft trance, while listening to trance, I listened to some unspoken words that are jumping with my emotions and these words are like incurable disease for me and killing my every night's sleep, making me unstable;making me nocturnal, i couldn't sleep my thoughts were too deep, my mind had gone out for a stroll and fallen down the rabbit hole. sometimes my head is just like to get out of my skin. I am dying like a fetus which is being fragmented by the pills. I too had a dream I too wanted to live a good life.these dreams are not mine, nevertheless, these dreams are for u. I just want to Ignite my soul and my demons want to be that hero which will be known by his work, not by the face. My bat means a lot more than my friend.every night he wakes me up from my sleep.now I dream with open eyes...

Everyone has two Demons inside their head, the one trying to live in peace; the second one is sensitized by the bad evils and the reality is the one you feed the one you become. My sleepless wet eyes are turning into a red-hot ball. While reading through my eyes, suddenly my fear dies, deep inside those eyes., I'm drowning in my own sea.where my goals are floating like a lifebuoy but the distance is endless, is it a mirage?. I want a miracle to happen. Do you know how hard I am working on it sometime developing my own system, building a machine, creating new thing, sometimes calculating extremities, sometimes composing trance, sometimes burning the time in thinking a revolutionary idea I wish someone had a dream like me. I wish, I wish, I wish. I know that you have better things to do in your life. I know you probably have errands to run, so keep your demon calm and change yourself otherwise everything will be changed. I will arrest your soul and make u cry, deep from inside, surely u will beg for death. One day there will be a real fear of bat when the Dark Knight will rise again the bat will again take over the shadow and again good peoples will watch the sunrise together.